Mickieeeeee

2010-12-02T02:53:00.000-08:00

I is sorry for leaving undead. I is lazy to update, hehe.
Hey world, i wanna tell you on how much i miss this irritating boy right now. I miss him badly. I wanna hug him, i wanna kiss him. But i can't cuz why hes at jb leaving me alone due to his family issues. I miss spending time with him. World, can you tell him that i is sorry for the lies i had towards him, i is for hurting him and keep continously giving him my endless attiude. I feel regret and it's hard now when he's not here with me when i'm in need and i miss him putting me to sleep cuz why i will be waking up every few hours due of the habit sleeping beside him every night when he's not working and sleeping over at his home. Oh world, i'm trying to stay strong and take this as part of my lesson for treating him badly. Although i knew when some parts of it he did hurt me with his words, action and he not thinking of the things i dislike. I knew myself that i have such big jealousy, cuz why i can't control my emotions when i see him being flirtious when actually hes not. But that's the way i are. I is sorry, love. You matters to me, i don't wish to lose you deep inside. I is being ego cuz i was expecting you to make the first move. I wasted my tears everytime cuz i is hurt when someone i love do this to me. I is sorry for being emotional, i just couldnt bear keeping all this right from my heart. I'm angry with some of my family attiudes towards me, my grandma, and also him?! Tell me world, yes some are there for me but indeed i need him the most. I cried when hes being irritating that day when after 4 days of not meeting each other up. I is sorry for the continously crying, i miss you love. I knew you had problems yourself, but love was i there for you?? How about me, are you there for me? I is mad, angry, disappointed when you being selfish. You can't accept things on what i did, but your shits before all this happened? How did i cope then, how hurt i am? I is down with depression. I just want you to be here for me and so do i? Please love, come back soon.
I love you, <3

2010-10-21T22:18:00.000-07:00

Wednesday ( Ladies night ).
Life been extremely enjoyable, with my boyfriend, my beautiful girlfriends. I just thank God for everything. Good things happened this past few days and i'm glad about it. Although when it comes to the part of my family, i just wanna take things easy and pray that everything gonna be alrite. Nenek been having her hard times right now and supposly i should be there for her when indeed shes the only one in my family members that i can depend on. I'm sorry nenek. Life been constantly making me contented. Thank God, my awesome boyfriend is here for me. Since he came to my life, since hes changed for the better, everything seems wonderful. No words can describe how happy i am being with him. The love i had for him is unreplacable. Being with him even for awhile makes every moment special. So far, hes the best i had. If and with God-willing i really wish this relationship could really last for a lifetime. Insya-allah & Amin.

2010-10-14T21:52:00.000-07:00

Dear boyfriend,
I'm left with a few hours and you gonna leave me alone for the next 8 days. Gosh, i'm so gonna miss you. I'm gonna miss hugging, kissing, being pampered at, putting me to sleep and never failed hugging me throughout my sleep. I'm sorry for being useless girlfriend for the past few days. I just dont know how you could really endure. Thank you love. Please take good care of yourself, i don't wish to have anything for you to bring back. I just want you to be safe back home and you simply enjoy yourself theere. I love you. Muacks.

2010-08-15T08:45:00.000-07:00

Hey, rusty blogger! Just updating since i'm bored and i wanna update more on blogger bcuz my friends have been asking me to update. Picture taken at vivo when we bumped into baby's friend, fiqo and his friendly gf or friend i think. Haha, not quite sure mah. So far alhamduliah i have been fasting for the past 3 days. Only one day skipped fasting. Me, bf, tasha bby and riz knows why ^^ Guess what, i'm left w couple of days and its baby birthday and 8 days after that is my birthday. Super sexcited. I've bought baby birthday. Just wait for the day and i take picture i put at blogger alrite. Guess i'm done, more on tumblr. Adios.

2010-08-10T23:46:00.001-07:00

Happy Fasting Everyone.

2010-07-31T06:44:00.000-07:00

I just feel like blogging cuz i'm freaking bored right now.

Firstly, bf is out of town & he will only be back by tomorrow night. I bored without bf, what to do now? Secondly, i should have followed mama to jb since i'm not gg out with bf. Regretful -.- & Finally my phone have been an ass to me. It's spoilt and i have to by no choice to used the one that my aunt gave it to me. Binget tau, mcm tahu je ni hp aku nya gaji coming out soon. Cazo! ( Pig in itailan ) . I also not sure what to type. Haiyaaaa, any comments for the new song. Nice not??? Dear friends, link me at tumblr & blog. I'm using both. But more active in Tumblr alrite. I mean new updates there. www.candysugarpie.tumblr.com Check it out alrite. I guess i'll be sleeping or watching tv or most less waiting for mama to be back. Chiows.

2010-07-27T02:47:00.001-07:00

BACK ON TUMBLR.

2010-07-18T08:13:00.001-07:00

I very very busy with life, love & friends.

Be back soon :)

2010-07-14T20:33:00.001-07:00

Thanks to baby for waking me up!

Now i'm far awake. Kncb! LOL. I'm working later and thankfully i working w kak mass today till closing atleast it brightens my day. If i'm working w that italian irritating manager, i don't know what my day would turn up like. Always trying to find my mistakes and keep on lecturing time to time. Irritated! I left alone at home and mama have forgetten to leave some foods for my breakfast. Like again, i need to buy my breakfast & lunch. The flu i'm having been contiously having since last week. Fuck lah! I almost forgetten to thank yana for her treat yesterday. Cheese fries & Coldrock Bubblegum flavour with Gummie bears topping. Yummmmmy! That was the first time i had Coldrock. Awesome lah, i wanna tried it again when i meet baby tomorrow. Hopefully he would allowed me too. He keep scolding me for eating junks foods. Ergh. Tapi kalu Frolicks buleh pula?? Binget je. I need to help mama on something so i guess i better log out my facebook & done blogging or i would be lazy to help her. Ok chiows.

2010-07-14T03:39:00.000-07:00

Hola.

Just came back from my morning shift. Feeling so restless & sleepy. Gosh, i almost knocked onto the person sitting beside me as i was sleepy inside the bus. Thankfully she didnt realised it as she was sleeping too -.- I love this picture taken by the Stomp photographer which is taken at Marina Bay Sands when we watched the World Cup Final. I like, superduper like! Baby was freaking sweet this morning as i sleepover at his homey like usual, i was actually early and due to some reasons i was very very very late for work. Baby said something that really touches and makes me melt. Awwww baby, u so so very very sweet and cute. I likeee! And yes i love you too. I've watched the desipendable me. Awesome, those cute little kids & yellow things was so superduper cutee! && i'm gonna watch the expendable this friday w baby. Me & baby can't wait. Yana darling was inviting me to party but i guess i'm not gg as both me & baby are freaking tired and i'm not in the mood to go. Well u see, i can't go w/o him around. Somehow bby don't trust me gg alone or w babygirls. I wondered why. Haha, maybe i know the reasons why. Okay whatever. It doesnt matter. Anywhere Ramadan is coming and two of my V.I.P birthday is coming. Ermmm, lots of things to planned and actually buy. Ergh, apa nak beli kan si masham tuu?? Still wondering till now. I hope bby would just go with the flow with whatever items that im gonna buy for him. Well u see, bby is abit sensitive & fussy when comes to items. See how it goes. Okay i'm doned, i wanna take my shower & sleep. I v v tired like hell. Kncb!

2010-07-12T06:11:00.000-07:00

I just woke up, headache been worse. Gosh, this is really killing me. I need baby. I couldn't even have a proper sleep. The people in my homey been giving me more headache. I pity my lil brother. C'mon open ur eyes and see he is just a primary 5 year boy. He will be sure making the same mistakes continously and the '' BOSS " keep on shouting and shouting like a mad person. Irritating lah sia! This is one of the reason i dont love staying at home. If " BOSS " mad with somebody else she will show tantrum to everybody especially me. Baby please be here, i really need you! I hate it lah sia. Ergh. I'm taking a nap again if possible as i need to work tomorrow morning. I have too since nobody is working in the morning except for me & charmine. Pity charmine. But putting aside all this, i ending up has finally dowloaded two new songs. Thank you limewire for not being a ass today! I love you. LOL! & one of it is my blog song. Enjoy, i wanna rest v v badly! Please home, keep your mouth & shut. Please :/

spain won

2010-07-11T20:54:00.000-07:00

♥ Thank you baby boy for the treats & presents. I ♥ you ~!

Let's summarise what me & ♥ did for the past two days.

Pastmania & Seoul Garden.
Bought our same pair of Havainas.
♥ bought himself a Dkny polo- tshirt and two others t-shirt.
Bought my new mascara.
Watched World Cup finale with ♥ at Marina Bay Sands.

Basically thats what we did for the past two days. Due of lack rest i'm down with bad headache & bad flu so i took Mc for today. Gosh, how irritating it could be. Thank God ♥ love the small gift that i bought for him since about i leaving him behind and lied to him about certain things. I'm sorry ♥, i promised i won't do it again. I ♥ you.

What more else, SPAIN WON! yahoooooooooooo.

i miss my baby

2010-07-09T05:55:00.000-07:00

I meet up with this cb of mine, LOL! i miss her like a fat girl misses her mother. Did alot of catching up, did shopping with her, had old chang kee with her since we decided not to have a bigger meal, bought two movie tickets for her & cuzzy, wasted time doing window-shopping and bought alip's present! I hope ahbie love it! " cross fingers " Next pay is gonna be in 3 weeks time and yes i decided to buy me & alip two pair of havainas which is the same. Can't wait. I misses two of my other babygirls. When u guys free? I miss you girls freaking much much. Last morning, yana darling treated me eclipse since she wanted to watch that movie so much. Its the second time i had watched that movie. I slept halfway when i was watching that movie w yana. HAHA! Thanks b for the treat. I love you lah. Hmm, i have been thinking of joining full-time since my italian manager would encourage too. Still thinking. See how.

2010-07-04T04:00:00.000-07:00

I'm meeting Alip now.

Byebye, Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2010-06-30T05:50:00.000-07:00

Song : All of the Above.

I had morning shift today thank God! Ended work at 4.30 just now, took my own sweet time and off home. Thank you kak mass for the breakfast and not so dinner, LOL! I'm not partying tonight as firstly i'm freaking tired due to me can't sleep yesterday night and ♥ has disallowed me gg to club w babygirls bcuz of zouk event ! Hmm, i know its my fault for leaving u and just ingoring u. Y'know the reason why kan bby so? Totally my fault meh, who asked u to leave me at zion, go pentingkan ur minom lagi lorh, luckily theres Faisal around if not. For sure i'm gonna killed u! Nasib baik gue cinta lu kalu tak jgn harap i'm gonna listen to u bby. You know what kind of person i am kan! Further more, Im broke no money. I v v lazy to take the first bus home. I working at 2.30 tomorrow. Later cannot wake up, kesian kak mass kena buat closing sorg-sorg. I ♥ her y'know. During my free time just now when i got back home, waliao so many updates need to do. Put more songs, update facebook, listen to new songs, update tumblr and lastly this blogger. 5th is coming, shopping list have been make but before that need to pay my bill and baby. Then can go shopping ^^, and this month i have so many plans with babygirls. Reunion outing w twinny and the rest, planing to go sentosa with babygirls. I miss them freaking much much. Been busy with baby and work, i neglected them. Sorry babygirls ♥ and baby's pay day also coming ! Yahoo, i dont know whats the plan yet when we both have our pays. But for sure i'm gonna buy baby his G-shock and mine Baby-G. Nak step loving je ehs kite due. HAHA! I guess i'm gonna take my shower as i'm feeling the melekit-melekit and after that i'm gonna take my beauty sleep. I v penat !

Chiows, good niteeeee. I ♥ Alip.

Happy 5 month ahbie

2010-06-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

Happy 5 monthsary to us ♥ .

Aliff, during this 5 months we been together, we have faced lots of ups & downs, lots of heartbreaks, the countless break-ups we had, the countless attiude. From you being flirtious to you becoming a good boy now. You done alot for me eventhough the sacrifices that you make is not as huge. I appreciate all the little things that u did, all the stuffs that u bought & especially endouring my endless attiude & craps. How lucky i am to have you in my life. Frankly u are different than i had before so far. Sometimes when u make me mad or u being irritating and when i feel like giving up this relationship of ours, u give me the reasons not too. My love towards you grew stronger and stronger day by day. No matter how much others might hate you becuz of the way u treated me, no matter how much u make me cried & etc, i just couldnt leave you ahbie. You make me realised some things that i should have done before. I just couldnt find another replace of you. From the bottom of my heart, the love i had is just specially for you. If one day, Faith is not with us and if we are destined to be separated i just wanna tell you this, aliff you are special you win my heart again & again, i never regretted having u in my life and i'm just thankful to have u in my life. I love you dearly.

Love zahirah ♥

2010-06-27T08:07:00.000-07:00

Currently listening : Inna : Love

Awesome night, all thanks to my dearest family.

Woke up at 2 plus just now, had my lunch and joining in with mama & adek watching tv. At around 3 plus along ( auntie) called and asked me , mama & adek whether we wanna tag along with them. Then i said Yes, since i've no plans furthermore baby is working and i had my off day today. To avoid being bored at home or else i will be spending my time sleeping at home since i'm freaking tired due of partying at zouk last friday and work last saturday. How tired i could be. Had just couple of hours of sleep at baby's homey on saturday morning and off to work till 12.30. Went to woodlands waterfront with my loved ones like usual sitting down and taking the breeze and enjoying every sec w them. After that, headed to causeway had our dinner. Actual plan was to head down town but due to time since tomorrow is School reopening for the pri & secondary and them working we canceled the plans. I was feeling moody all the way since i wanted to go shopping. Blablablabla but they just brought a smile to my face when they planned to had dinner at swensens.Yahoooo, its been a while i had swensens. Thank you all. Ordered, laughed here and there, camwhore and eat. My favourite part was the dessert. Yummmmmmmmmmy like shit. My favourite! I'm one happy person today. Working tomorrow, yahoo italian manager has went for her 1 week holiday to JAPAN ! Byebye. I guess i'm heading to my bed now since i'm working in the afternoon or else i cant be waking up. Had my eyebrown doned, all thanks to yana darling. Thank you babygirl. I nak sleeeeeeeeeeeep, good night semuaaaaaa.

I love alip, nitenite ahbie. Imy.

i love him

2010-06-24T10:25:00.000-07:00

i love him more than anything else.

Like i told you, we will still be happy no matter what u wanna said.

Not even a single word from you can bring me or us down. I repeat, NOT ONE!

Just make it clear, you are just being jealous bcuz hes more much than urs rite !

Fucklio lah, leave us alone. You a such a ass in my pain.

♥ Where are you?

2010-06-21T23:12:00.000-07:00

Ian Somerhalder ♥
Isn't he so freaking hot & handsome & cute?? Awesome three ! I'm so crazy over Ian. I even had his folder in my phone. He's more hot, handsome & cute when he acted in Vampires Diaries. Alamak, buleh melts over and over again tauu. He's like My Mr Alip just that Alip is much more darker. LOL ! Alip gonna be jealous when i had his folder on my phone later. I can bet on it. Haha, kalu buleh he wants all his pictures in my phone. Even i had my ex pic w friends he would be mad about it. LOL ! Do you guys wanna know that alip has a v v huge jealousy inside. Even if i huged my guy friends infront of him, he would be mad about it. Alaaaa, sayang aku ehs ahbie! LMAO. I planning to have my mani & pedi doned by this month but still must asked alip for permission if he allowed me too :( I wished he would said YES ! pleaseeeeee " cross fingers " I so geram already with all the nails design and colour. Waliao, can go crazy sia ! Ahbie, why haven't called me till now. I worried lah ahbie. Faster used public phone called me. Imysm. You got reporting at 2 kan kan. Don't be late, i wanna meet you if possible because i'm working at 6.30 later. Ahbie, i nak hug lahh :( Waliao, 4 days already never meet and hug and kiss u can go crazy sia. I had Macdonald for breakfast/lunch just now. Sodaaaap ! Now so freaking full, deserve u irah. I still thinking of disactive my facebook as i'm not so active in it, so do ahbie ♥. I v v busy with work, ahbie, party. I got no time for all this? 2 days ♥ off, i spend the whole two days with him, if i working, after work when back ♥ home. & I cant used fb when i'm with ♥. Must spend time with him. Like only once a while, used also if i'm w him if hes sleeping or busy watching tv. Now i so bored nothing to do, i v v lazy to update at fb. Can't wait to work later, meet my happy pills and guess what my italian manager is going for her 1 week Holiday to Japan, Party perh at work. Yahoooo! I guess i'm done for now. Chiows.
Fucklio, in english means Fuck You! LOL.

2010-06-21T03:12:00.000-07:00

My 3 days off was awesome, was well spent with family. Did alot of catching up w them.

It's been 4 days that i couldnt meet up with my dearest busyuk ♥ due to some reasons, i miss him badly. Omg, it feels like 4 years. I miss hugging him, i miss calling him " Ahbie ", i miss disturbing him, i miss being mad at him, i miss him being irritating, i miss kissing him ! I miss, i miss everything. You see how badly i miss him. " Ahbie, i wish tomorrow i could meet u first before i go to work. Dah rindu gila lah ahbie. :( " Somehow i feel like i could last this r/s of mine w alip. Alip has been the one who understand and endour my shits & attiude. He understand me best. Everyone keep asking me why must u still stick w a guy who make ur heart broken the whole time, always comparing u, always making u cried, always asking for a break-up eventough the matter is small. I couldn't answer that questions of theirs. How i wish i could just said to them how special and you havent see the soft side of alip. NO one knows what i & alip knows about each other. We both knew and hold too much secrets about each other. He's always supporting me when my previous r.s i had keep making shits & stories about me which i think and true enough is not right about me. He keep saying this to me, " buat bodoh sudah bie, y'know i love you kan kan ". Yeap bby, i love you so much. You are much more or i said 10 times much better than HIM ! My gf told me Mickie/Irah i see u lagi happy and ur r/s is much longer than u and ***** ! Yeap, mama ckap alaa bila sayang semua jalan, bila dah benci kutok lah ni lah! I must agreed w mama 100 % . Further more, i still young and i'm still enjoying life.

For now, all i need is my Family, Alip & Closest Friends. Thats all. I'm enjoying.

I dont care what people said, I still happy !

i love my people at

2010-06-12T10:15:00.000-07:00

I had fun at work just now due to my italian manager was having her off day today. We all were partying at work. The atmosphere, the music, the continous having lunch, dinner & supper. Haha! We did too had time for some webcam pictures and blablabla. What i knew was i had fun just now. I really can't wait for my italian manager to have her holiday in 2 weeks time. It's gonna be the same whole thing again. I ♥ my job. Yahooo. Tomorrow is my off and also my brother beside my mom side is getting married. So i need to attend the ceremony in the morning, helped out a bit and ard 2 plus i'm meeting boyfriend. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaa, i miss him like a fat kid misses his mother. Ahbieeee wanna go shopping tomorrow. Yes, can't wait. Ok i guess i'm done updating. I wanna take my beauty sleep already. If not cannot wake up tomorrow & I have chores to do also. I need to iron my clothes and etc. Nights people. Chiows.

2010-06-11T10:42:00.000-07:00

I will be busy with work life.

I will update once i have my free time.

BRB !

Aliff, I LOVE.

kite dah mcm main game

2010-06-05T19:39:00.000-07:00

I'm having my two days off starting today (: Yahoo.

I ♥ my new job! Everytime eat, everytime drink. Confirm can grow fat! Haha. Bf went to fetched me yesterday. He's 1/2 hour late, Smack You! Had dinner like usual, then we chilled and walked around town since me & bf have been a while. Saw familiar faces, hugged and exchange vowes. Spending quality time w bf. Ard 8 meet up with tasha baby, chilled and had some drinks! But only tasha bby, radit, bf & the rest drink as i hate black liquor. =.= We didnt stayed up till the last train like how we usually would as bf is working the next day. Went back redhill and something happened. I'm kinda lazy to elaborate as i know and y'know it would be still the same reason again & again. But this time i was brave enough to say to him that i'm gonna leave him for good. I beg him for forgiveness and etc. Thks for letting out the feelings u had inside, i respect it! When u said all that, i cried feeling so disappointed inside and when i finally make a decision to leave u. You make it so hard to let u go. You keep doing things that we both love to do. I know deep inside you ♥ me, it's just the ego u had?! Am i right ?? Till now, honestly i'm thinking twice about this r/s. I'm not sure whether we could really last and i'm not sure about the feelings i had towards you now. I wondered am i lying to myself about all this? I keep taking back my words when i know deep down i meant it. Whyy aliff? Why so hard? Why are u making things so troublesome for me?!!! I'm fcuking stress! Helpppppp ?!

2010-06-03T21:55:00.000-07:00

I'll do my updates when i'm free alrite ((:

sometimes things doesnt come

2010-05-25T00:54:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i'm tired of being or getting hurt, getting my heart broke continously, endour all those shits, being in tears everytime. Sometimes i feel like giving up in this r/s. I tried so hard being so patience and just endour. Why it's so hard for me to let you go?? When deep down i know how i feel and felt about this r/s. Sometimes its useless to think bck all the good memories i had. OMG! Yes indeed it is true, i miss my past times. I miss them all. Despite those hurting moments, but atleast i did enjoyed every single thing, the things that i did and do with them. Maybe they much more likely to be memories than now. Maybe somehow i regretted how i treated them last time, Maybe now i had what people called KARMA! Fuuh, it's really killing me obviously. This r/s is way more tougher than what i get in the previous one. I put so much effort, courage, patience, understanding, all those was 10 times more. Why am i still holding on this r/s?? I, myself couldnt give this answer. Yes, i sincerely love you for what u are, for what you did, for what every single effort that you put into it.

I'm speechless to the max :(

2010-05-21T23:19:00.000-07:00

Gg to meet tasha bb later. Pity her so much, facing her hard times. Why guys are so troublesome, and a pain in the ass! Baby, stay strong alrite tell me everything later when i meet u up ok. You know i will be here for you no matter what happens right. I love you so much. Boyfriend too been giving me problems for the past two days when i'm his homey. You see something so tiny can make us go headwire. Why bb so sensitive so irritating! Till i cried then you know how to apologised. Bb very bad uh you. But b, thks for the hardwork and thks for buying me all those items. Pls bb, don't be like this. You promised me right? SO pls behave.

2010-05-19T01:58:00.000-07:00

Party-ing tonight & bby i love you.

2010-05-18T18:50:00.000-07:00

Baby ♥

I never regretted falling in love w you. Our love journey was unbelievable right bb ?? We never knew this was coming. From the time u are not serious w me till the time u changed. Totally changed. Through sugar & spice we 've gone through. This r/s was a tough one. But see bb, we make it through. 3 months have past, i hope it will stayed and if it could let it last long. Insya-allah (: Thks for everything busyuk. ILYSM ♥

2010-05-16T22:35:00.000-07:00

I'm having interview at 4pm later.

Wish me lucks, thks.

Bf, sorry i let you down. I never meant to.

What i did, it's all bcuz of u.

boyfriend tgah binget dgn i

2010-05-16T08:10:00.000-07:00

I had my fries plus plus slurpee just now, thank u mama ♥

I told bf about me quiting topshop and bf is freaking mad about it. Hais, i'm sorry bf. I shouldn't upset you but i've already make up my mind about it. Now bf is making me think twice again. Should i?? I know bf is upset about it because we've make plans when we both had our first pay later. Now everything is cocked up due to my reasons. Hais, i keep letting bf down. He had high expectations from me but i'm unable to fulfill any of his wishes. Bb, i'm so bad. So sorry pls. Don't be mad :(

2010-05-16T00:14:00.000-07:00

I nak tidor tapi tak leh.

Baby ada kan bagus, buleh put me to sleep.

Anti dia hug tuu dia tepuk and say ily baby, goodnite (:

2010-05-15T22:27:00.000-07:00

Hello.

A v v random post, i'm bored stuck at home doing nothing. I wanna go out pls. But if i do, i know bf won't allowed me too unless with a valid reason. You see how control he can be, he's way sensitive too. So i have to control my emotions & things that i do/did. Baby, don't worry lah i wont don't stupid things i just wanna go out that's all. I'm quiting Topshop soon. I didn't told bf about this. Or else i'm gonna be dead. I can't really stand retail line but i've been offered a lots of job regarding retail for this few days. OMG! I tried my best sticking to one job. Its not easy y'knw. I know you guys will be giving non-stop compliments but i don't care. Bf knows better (:

Bf can you be nice when u are doing ur gate duty,

dial my no and call me.

" Aku mendak ni bb, aku tak ahu nak buat apa.

Tidor tak leh, perut aku sakit. Alahai "

Mama kuwa gie mother's day outing. Borrrrrrrrring !

2010-05-15T19:54:00.000-07:00

You deserve me bb, you know i love you kan kan ^^

thks for everyting love.

boyfriend

2010-05-15T19:48:00.000-07:00

Boyfriend,

Thks for being frank w me, thks for telling me about the past, thks for being honest w me, thks for changing just for the sake of this relationship, thks for giving me a second chance, thks for trying to make me believe in you. I love you baby.

no words can describe how i feel when u did all this for me.

Happy working bb ^^

sorry for the long absence

2010-05-15T19:36:00.000-07:00

After so long, i finally have make plans w yana darling to Sentosa. I miss the beach. The last time i went was few months back. Omg! I love the atmosphere there despite the hot hot heat. I love it! Tanning, having a relaxing time and just enjoying every sec of it. Thank you darling for the treats and etc. I love you. Further more, i get to catch up things w her. Well, she and firah was the only one till now that i'm still contacting with despite my work, despite the busy life i'm having right now.

The rest i think gone case already ! So heck care. I'm lazy.

After a long session at the beach, meet up w bf like usual after his reporting. Had our lunch and i get to meet dell at night. The other one i miss, just keep her shut down w/o even contacting w me. Bad babygirl ^^. Despite like always the small arguments i had w bf i enjoyed my times with dell & haizad ( her boyfriend ). They both were laughing their ass off looking and watching me & bf had our stupid arguments =.= I wanna meet TASHA baby, rinddddddddddddddddddu :(

2010-05-10T05:24:00.000-07:00

i miss busyuk.

still haven't text me from just now.

so naughty :/

2010-05-04T04:35:00.000-07:00

Well, i didn't realised that you were talking about me all this while. Well, although i know this is just the past, but hey thats my pride u are talking. When i came crossed your tumblr and when i read back all your posts. I came across this fcuking one. Ok, listen here. I'm freaking not interested with that " bf " of yours. I knew him much much more better than u. I know hows he like and etc. You just a starter and a new one in his life. What shits have u gone through w him? Have you ever know what really actually happened between us? Don't u realise that '' bf '' of yours is such a one hypocrite guy. Yeap, he may not show his true colours now but sooner see it for yourself. I would like to see how far you can go with him. Aku '' bahan ", well speak for urself my dear yp girl ((: Kau ni mcm bodoh gitu, bukan dgn aku sorg lah dia busuk2 kan. dgn semua ex dia pun. Dont talk big. Kau piker "bf " kau tuu mana nya sachok kat sinie. Fyi, he use to be mine last time?? So yes, i dont mind not having him now and no worries i wont take him from u. Tez! Mulut " bf " kau dah lah kalah mulut pompan. Kau blom nampak true colours dia syg. Well fyi, kalu dia ckp aku ni the most bad gf he ever had, abe asal dia masih nak tahu pasl hidop aku and yes i need to tell u this, dont u know that ur bf still asked about me through my bbg at msn. Well "gf",let me tell u this your MR.nice is a two-faced headed guy.

2010-05-03T19:39:00.001-07:00

iloveyou..

You're still the one I run to. The one that I belong to. You're still the one I want for life.

You're still the one that I love. The only one I dream of. You're still the one I kiss good night.

2010-04-30T18:46:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND .

AWESOME, thank u bf for making my day. Love you much much.

watching IRONMAN 2

2010-04-29T19:43:00.000-07:00

Off day, like finally!

After 3 days of working, finally i get some rest. Pfft! Working at Topshop is way harder than my previous job which is way too relaxing. Well in topshop u have to learn the items of the clothes, the location of the iterms.Tiring like deeply hell. Well, i think i have taken things for granted last time. Padan muka kau, Irah! Pftt! But thank God i had friendly colleque. Haha, But is fun though despite entertaining irritating customers, manager and some of the colleque there. Bf been a nice one for the past few days, fetching me from work and just lighten the stress i had at work. Thanks bf for being a supporting one and yes like today Iron-man 2 is out in cinema. Catching with bf today. Yipee. Hes having takraw today. Waiting for him to back and off to town catching that movie. But i'm gonna bet that show will be sold out! How?? Should i book online? Wonderinggg ! OK im done,

getting a short nap while waiting for bf to be back home. Sayang kau ALIP " inside heart "

2010-04-27T16:56:00.000-07:00

Gue tetap masih syg pacar gue!

Alip punya siols ! Haha.

MUHAMMAD ALIFF BIN ABDUL WAHID

2010-04-25T07:20:00.000-07:00

I love you, baby! :(

I, just a normal human being doing stupid mistakes continously.

I know that.

I have feelings, Am i so invisible?? Why must i be the one who always who should understand the situation . U sometimes don't realised that the things/words that u said/did/do could hurt me so deeply. For the past 3 months we've been together i tried my best with everything. No matter how hurt i am, no matter how much heartbreaks it takes, i just simply ingored because why?? The love i had for u? Yeap, i'm still clueless why am i being so stubborn and stupid to be in this r/s and staying on strong? Why Zahirah? Why? Am i so afraid of letting him go?? Sometimes i just dont understand you baby?? I cried when i'm too frustated, i cried wondering why & how could you do all this to me? Leave me if u dont need me anymore, leave me if u dont love me anymore, leave me if u could not trust me anymore, leave me if u think i'm not being sincere with you. Leave me Aliff. I'm so speechless right now. I keep thinking of you. When i texted u after u sent me those message, i'm waiting for you to get back to me. But till no news from u. Baby, i'm working tmorow. Can u please atleast text me asking about my whereabouts. How could you baby? Wheres the alip who changed?? Where?? My tears are rolling down to my cheeks. Feeling so disappointed, feeling so stress! Yes. i'm being emotional because i love you so. I still treasure this r/s. I still love us. NO MATTER WHAT! When i talked to my guyfriends, i just smiled & laughed for a moment but no one knows how i feel inside. Please baby, dont do this to me:(

2010-04-21T01:17:00.000-07:00

Just came back from baby's homey just now as

he's gonna help out his father just for awhile in the afternoon.

Going partying tonight. Baby please don't perangai ehs. Gonna smack u i tell u uh. Guess what people, the wing tai person called me and i've just gotten a place at topshop i-on. Yahoo, gonna be starting work next monday. Yipee, sacred but at the same time excited! Hahaha. Keep telling baby dont perangai when i start work later. I put the trust on him. I'm wondering till now, u know that man is attached and still can text him baby, darling & dear? Like hello bitch, am i invisible? Its fcuking obvious that his profile on facebook shows that hes attached?? Which part of it that u dont understand. I pity u that much as u can't get urself a boyfriend and instead u wanna have someone else boyfriend. C'mon lah, u are girl and i'm too! You should be more understanding about how i feel dont u?? Ke kau ni miang sangat and hmmm so gatal that u cannot text or flirt w other guys. Dont test my patience. Dont test what i can do. So what u are ''popular" among people! U think i care. Yeap, its true no use fighting over guys! But hello, u know hes attached and whos the one starting all this craps?? Who?? I know baby always text girls w/o telling u girls that hes attached. I know him too well. Jangan kena dipermainkan sudah! So yes, stop making yourself looks like an idiot here. Just fcuk off and yeap. I dont mind you texting him, i'm not those typical girlfriends that i dont allow my baby to text or call w other girls. But please know ur limitations. I myself too texted/called w other guys. So yes. But as friend. So i hope u respect me as his gf or else im gonna tell u see whats gonna happened. I'm not threat-ing u or what so ever but hey, please understand my situation and yes, let me asked u? Would u liked when other girls texted ur bf saying all those sweet and mushi2 text msg?? Do u like other girls text ur bf saying those baby & etc??

Try putting urself in my shoes. Ok, blah ! Stop being a BITCH.

You got the wrg one! ((((:

2010-04-20T10:04:00.000-07:00

I was bored while waiting baby to wake up. He's far asleep when i was at his homey just now. Understood he's way too tired after being in the station for 24 hr. But then my stomach been giving me problems so i have too by hook or crook have to wake baby's up. Luckily he being a understand one, force himself up and had shower and had dinner at vivocity. Thank u baby. Love u much much. Our plan was to had some movie marathon in the late night but since something cock up in the last minute plan we decided to cancel it. Sorry baby. Next time alrite. Meeting him early in the morning later. Maybe gg zirca in the night but see how it goes since baby is working the next day. You see so naughty, working the next day some more wanna club! Ergh, want to meet who only u ehs baby? I had ice-cream since i'm craving for it yesterday. Yipee, thank u baby and i had my apple juice drink just now. Yummy! Bump into aisha baby just now inside the train. Miss her much much. Had some talks w her. Waliao, her face look so damn tired. Kcian baby. Had enough rest ok baby aisha (: Ok, baby is now fa asleep as hes tired and next would be my turn. Nights everyone. Love kau ALIP

2010-04-19T20:35:00.000-07:00

Going for interview later in the afternoon. Wish me lucks people.

Thank you bf for wishing me lucks. Love you much much. Gonna be meeting firah at 1 to 1.30 at town alone with lilu. Miss that biatch of mine. After interview is done, i've to meet bf at redhill as we are not gg out today as he just return home from work. Maybe going for dinner and off to his home and movie marathon. And now hes far asleep. He sound tired so let him be. Done w home chores, get ready and off to interview?? What should i wear?? Still thinking??

Gonna be updating at night. Insya-allah.

Love kau ALIP

random

2010-04-19T06:11:00.000-07:00

Thks to mama cooking just now, i'm feeling way better now. Mama told me " perut kau masok angin tuu. "Maybe thats the reason why? I had two plates of rice just now + 3 chicken in it. Fuuh, yummylicious. && now i'm craving for ice-cream. How? Anyone nice or not? Can buy for me. I'm so gonna asked my lil bro to buy it for me. Craving for banana spilt w same three favourite flavours of mine. Vanilla. But i don't think any shops would have especially kdai di bawah blok. Haha. How?? If bf were here, i would just pass the money and asked him to buy it for me. Bf sometimes v v nice y'know. Hehe. But ending up i've to share it with him. Hais. Nothing much interesting i'm gonna do after blogging, Maybe gonna be watching tv or just facebook. And hell yeah, i've been online from morning till now. What a record. Bored, its just because of my boredom. Ok im done for now. Actually nothing else to say. Gonna be waiting for bf to text. Meeting bf tmrow like usual.

Hope ntg cock up.

Love you Alip,

2010-04-18T22:15:00.000-07:00

I'm fcuking bored right now. Nothing much to do. Called firah baby up but too bad she's otf with my dearest cuzzin. Chatted on msn, waiting for that somebody to be awake. Ergh, he didn't response to my text message. Wondering is he still mad w me after what happened. Wanting to text bf up but i've to wait for him to text since he's gonna be busy with work and further more, he texted me saying he will text me back. I wanna take a nap but i just can't put myself to sleep. Can anyone be nice and help me to kill my boredom? With my headache like this, i can't stayed too long on the comp. Seeing two things. Ergh ! I'm fcuking bored, i'm fcuking hungry. Ergggggh !

Boring.

back back.

2010-04-18T19:28:00.000-07:00

Back on blogger. Kind of missing posting long one. Hehe.
I, reached homey at 8 in the morning from bf's homey, two days of sleep-over. Miss homey like alot! I miss my favourite pillow w various smell, i miss my bed, i miss spending time alone in the room. Haha. Thats what i will always do when i'm at homey or when i'm not out. Well, i bet no one of my family members except my lil brother misses me. Well, i make no difference when i'm in/out. Well, i'm invisble in this family. Alrite, whatever. I miss bf already. Pity him that much as he needs to work although he has no cash with him right now. Talking bout work, i'm gg to work at topshop hoping i get asap as a full-timer, waiting for firah baby to make appointment for the interview. Well, once i'm working i'll be v v busy with work, Least time for bf, least time for enjoyment like duh. But this is for the best. Well, after those hard works, life will be easier after that. Bf, please don't make things which i don't like when i start work. Understand. Insya-allah, may i last long with this work. Hoping for the best. Amin. Life been as per normal. Nothing much interesting happened. Everytime, ( Bf, Party, Bf, Party ) How? Well, beside that i'm overjoyed as i've already graduated from my Nitec Course, Beauty Therapy which last for 1year3months. Yahooo. Delighted. No more worries, still reconsidering on going to the Graduation day. See how it goes. Love life been like usual. Like any other couples would be. Ups & Downs, i & bf been facing alot. Sometimes i feel like giving up, but others said. Dont give up with the one you loved. And yes, i'm trying to stay strong to face all obsctacles which happened now & sooner. Just hoping for bf to stop all his craps. And please for once, understand me. Don't always give me headache. Ergh !
Love kau Alip .

2010-03-25T23:40:00.000-07:00

hey dearest babes & hunks.

i've shifted to tumblr.

relink please.

http://candysugarpie.tumblr.com