I'm having my two days off starting today (: Yahoo.
I ♥ my new job! Everytime eat, everytime drink. Confirm can grow fat! Haha. Bf went to fetched me yesterday. He's 1/2 hour late, Smack You! Had dinner like usual, then we chilled and walked around town since me & bf have been a while. Saw familiar faces, hugged and exchange vowes. Spending quality time w bf. Ard 8 meet up with tasha baby, chilled and had some drinks! But only tasha bby, radit, bf & the rest drink as i hate black liquor. =.= We didnt stayed up till the last train like how we usually would as bf is working the next day. Went back redhill and something happened. I'm kinda lazy to elaborate as i know and y'know it would be still the same reason again & again. But this time i was brave enough to say to him that i'm gonna leave him for good. I beg him for forgiveness and etc. Thks for letting out the feelings u had inside, i respect it! When u said all that, i cried feeling so disappointed inside and when i finally make a decision to leave u. You make it so hard to let u go. You keep doing things that we both love to do. I know deep inside you ♥ me, it's just the ego u had?! Am i right ?? Till now, honestly i'm thinking twice about this r/s. I'm not sure whether we could really last and i'm not sure about the feelings i had towards you now. I wondered am i lying to myself about all this? I keep taking back my words when i know deep down i meant it. Whyy aliff? Why so hard? Why are u making things so troublesome for me?!!! I'm fcuking stress! Helpppppp ?!
